It doesn’t help anyone to prove that I’m different. Except to help me feel more comfortable in knowing. I’m not separating myself from people I just am different. But there is a growing minority of people out there who feel left out, because they don’t know who they are.
of all mammals and creatures, we are the only ones who cannot make our own vitamin C. so as a result, sea faring ancestors suffered with scurvy and their teeth fell out. Until they figured out limes would keep long and prevent the scurvy. Our human gene evolved to LOOSE the gene for creating Vitamin C. Because we are frugivores - which means we eat patchily available foods. And we were able to forage and gain enough vitamin C from fruit that our gene just forgot to use it… and now we have to add it to our diets.
the reason is, humans discovered we could turn sugars from fruit into FAT. And store energy for long seasons. Building up energy reserves. Few creatures can store fat as efficiently as we can. So our bodies forgetting to produce vitamin C, was because it was more concerned with breaking down sugars and turning them into fats.
we became sugar addicts. We can process sugar, which other creatures cannot. If a rabbit gets too much sugar, it will die. They have a taste for it, but they are not adapted to fattening up for long seasons without. Their bodies burn sugars immediately and the excess destroys their kidneys.
so evolution of the human gene, is often based on forgetting while their is abundance, and hybridizing when there is frugality.
the super athlete gene from the denisovans - so labelled because people who have it become incredibly strong, and even under low oxygen conditions still survive in frugality. CPAS1 gene, is all about converting fat stores readily, which the modern human can only do in times of frugality.
Denisovans died out partly because modern hominid was bigger, and able to compete them out, but given the time period of the disappearance of denisovans, it is likely that they could not survive climate change and cold extreme. For their fat stores could not last.
it would make them weak too soon, and their population never grew, beyond the enough remains to build a bigger picture.
there are plenty of fossils of the Neanderthals. But there is only one of the Denisovan, her DNA extracted from a finger bone.
ao this primitive super athlete gene, is likely to mean that I burn fat too quickly to maintain lengths of time of frugality. I am not designed to store fat as modern day humans are.
yes I am human, but this super athlete gene controls a lot of my somatic and physiological traits. It’s very likely that I have it, and very likely from a differential of knowing my traits over the last 4 decades.
i wonder if people know their own traits as well as i do? Or if that’s just a thing from being different.
does that mean if you are different and you feel it in yourself, that you can figure out the folds of your ancestry? Well, I believe so. Because I read peoples bodies. Instead of empathy like a dog, I can smell your illness. I can feel the flow through your body, where it is strong WHERE MINE IS WEAK, so I feel it in the changes in my own body.
this is my empathy. I don’t call it Empath. It doesn’t have a name, no sixth sense nor ESP. Because my brain is built just like yours, your body is built like mine. The only difference is, this thing you call emotions, in me, is rivers of time.
my mother told me that when she was pregnant with me, she couldn’t keep food down. She was sick all the time. This is an overload of seratonin. And unfortunately it would have flooded me in utero, and turned off all my receptors and sensitivity while I was developing… which means, I would have been born with LIMITED ABILITY TO FEEL EMOTIONS even if I could, they would be limited. I would mostly be a robot.
when I was born, I did not cry. Everyone thought it was odd, so the story my mother told. And the crazy thing is, the same happened to my first born. She did not cry neither. So I knew she had the potential to be hardwired with a psychopathic gene from my mother. I did not know at that time what autism was. But I know now that the unique combination of flooding and timing of testosterone and seratonin, triggers the potential for the gyric flow in the brain to become autistic and psychotic.
which she seems to demonstrate.
and that is not all.
neither did m second daughter.
but my second daughter was different she was an unusual birth.
born in the bag directly, with a hole in her heart. I pulled her out of the membranes, and the midwives had not seen this before. They said that it was spoken about as a rare thing. And I knew my second was very different, but I didn’t know what it was.
and then I discovered autism, and it explained so much. Because it is a developmental neuro type, which I define as in the ratios of the glia and the mirror neurons, which is ONLY possible with a certain balance of estrogen that controls the gyric template potential, the blank into which the Sulci and valleys are carved. For if this happens quicker, the valleys will be deeper, the surface area of the glia will be disproportionately large, enabling massive potential for SENSING, and integral processing.
when my mother named me - she affectionately called me LITTLE PLUM, not because of the petals, but because she was entertained I had swollen genitals like a purple plum.
this is caused by massive loads of testosterone, which enable my assertive mind, but as the testosterone was absorbed and converted in my baby body, it broke down to estrogen and started boosting my glia sculpting.
on top of being female, I got an extra large dose of glia formation, before two years old, then after that the pruning of my brain happened faster and thinner than most.
making me autistic.
the ability to sense. The ability to differentiate and integrate different processing, outside the normative patterns.
people try to define autistic traits, but I have found instead, these traits can be shaped by knowing the pathogenic is of the mother, during her pregnancy, and this has most influence on your epigenetic potential. Of the same genes expressed with different trauma, of your ancestors.
the way your mother experiences her maturity and trauma during her pregnancy, will shape your ability to sense and differentiate and integrate the world around you.
a woman who bears her trauma badly during pregnancy starves her child’s brain of testosterone, and even if the child is male, his pattern becomes stunted with drive and assertion, and instead becomes primed with estrogen. It’s similar to how amphibians preserve their numbers, by a single temperature degree will produce more female than male offspring to ensure the survival of the species.
so when a mother is stressed during pregnancy her testosterone switches off the epigene of competition in her offspring - enabling the future generation more sensing to survive as a group. So that testosterone drive does not metastasize like a cancer and pull society apart. There must not be too many predators and warriors in a tribe.
a groups survival depends on glue, the glia, that is shaped from the estrogen hormone that ALL BABIES respond to with a slow dissipation stored in their swollen newborn parts.