My inbox is like cancer with nem asking me if I still want a slave. Fucking morons, these aren’t men, thats why I use the word nem. If I am engaging in hate speak I do not use target all men, just nem.
Not even looking, although I know what I need to do now if I have the funding to just hire a sex worker, I’ll just budget a few hundred a month for a monthly save-it-all-up experiment day.
After finally realizing I CAN go and hire a sex worker if I need to, I feel so free again of having to Fanny around with peoples intentions and deceptions and just buy what I want.
It gave me the idea that this could be just the hobby I need for my physical outlet. I could just use a male sex worker for personal training and everything.
It’s really weird to know inside what I want, and just be free of the “game” of balancing his needs and wants, it occurred to me that this is an ingrained problem that ALL WOMEN seem to “suffer with” unknowingly. 95% of men expect to cum with a sexual interaction; meaning they don’t expect anything less, they can’t even consider “not getting satisfaction”. When a guy orgasms, that’s it, date is done, target achieves and so on.
For a woman, and this has been researched, there is a pleasure gap; she is 40% of the time UNSATISFIED with sex. The man has no clue this is a problem, the woman has no clue she deserves equal satisfaction, because she is often unable to explore or even have the idea of experimenting with her body. So, women tend to gravitate towards feeling like we do what men want us to do, because that’s just the way we are built and no one not even our mother has taught us, that 100% satisfaction Is to be EXPECTED, explored, demanded, understood, yet we assume that no one is listening, and we are not heard.
Imagine the difficulty a woman has weighing up all the “other pros” a man has to live with unsatisfactory sex as a consolation prize. Unsatisfactory sex Leads to the pleasure gap envy, jealousy, resentment, disinterest, and weighing up wether you even want to bother having sex for all the problems it causes afterwards.
That’s when we start looking elsewhere, the need to satiate and correct the balance never goes away. The need to feel stuffed and cum at the same time never goes away. Just because HIS DICK is not giving you pleasure does not mean you don’t want it. He hasn’t figured out your exact pressure points that turn you on, and for that matter we become used to just getting off the way we know how to with minimum disruption to our lives. Our sexual outlet becomes pushed into a corner of masturbation that we don’t even invest in, spend the time to explore, or truly expand into articulating to our partners what we need. Because, they aren’t listening, don’t care, don’t have a clue, and just think we don’t want sex.
I’ve just realized that I do want sex, but dicks don’t work on their own because men don’t use them properly, or the dick is just poorly designed. I don’t feel enough of it because my nerves and I have a bucket pussy when wet and sloppy I can’t feel no dick. It just disappears so the only sensation I get is the first penetration, which is nice, but then after if I am really aroused, things just go to shit with my childbirth Aubergine eating vagina.
Friction and length and stabby pains hurt. But not girth. And I need that feeling of being stretched and full. And to be quite frank a little dick won’t do it for me. UNLESS HE’s wearing a bad-dragon penis sleeve with all the bumps to stretch me out and give me the slurpy noises I need. Now I’ve never experienced it, but just watching it on a mature porn gets me right off. Lucky women with guys that are willing to tool-up and do that for her.
Knowing myself now, makes me feel so normal, and healthy, and realizing that actually, I can talk about my needs now TO ANYONE, just get what I want, and leave. No more debate about whether I should suck dick to keep him. Or allow him to go up my ass because that’s the only way he cums. No. There will be no compromises now.
A man can orgasm just fine with or without a woman. He can orgasm just fine with a vagina. In fact I find it a real turn off if he has to finish himself off in his hands with that fasty-wank just because “he’s not getting enough sensation” to me that’s just pathetic. Why bother fucking a woman if you need to jack off to cum? Well maybe it’s the same problem for him he needs tight ass tunnel like my asshole and not a slack wet horny pussy. So, therefore having a fuckable thru-plug should work?
And it’s the best of both worlds for me too. I avoid friction, I get to feel as full as an eggplant, I get pressure in the right place where dicks don’t usually hit because the strain in the neck of my device is giving me extra grabby pressure on my vulva.
Cracks me up when a guy goes: “ooooo you like that? You want that huh? Give you some of that?” And they go to town high speed polishing your clit when I’m just like NOOOOOOOOO that’s fucking terrible. I mean, I get that some women like the fucking mains powered hitachi magic wand power tool electrocuting their hood, but me? OMG get that shit away from me it’s literally like PAIN.
When I see a guy power-fluffing to resuscitate their flavor dick or finish themselves off, I understand they think that’s what a clit needs too - which is we have our wires crossed and that kind of polishing power or tongue tickle will definitely not work for me.
Infact, that’s also my biggest freak out with oral, guys that THINK their piano fingers and raspberry fart tongues are everything. NO. Just NO. Get that nasty torture away from me. I’m extremely sensually overwhelmed and slow constant pulsing pressure works just fine to bring me to a crescendo.
Knowing this now. Actually REALIZING this now about my body, has made me extremely powerful inside. I won’t take shit. I won’t accept shit. I’m fact, I’m not after a relationship so if sex is a hobby outlet for me, it seems completely reasonable to hire a good looking sex worker to just do as I command. For pay.
If all men thought about themselves as giving women what we would pay for, instead of what they personally want, I’m sure this attitude would change their attractiveness on many levels. I’ve been browsing male escort profile pages, and to be honest, these guys are surrogate relationships not just a sex worker. They offer pretty much everything a loyal woman could want wrapped in different personalities, I could almost do that on the regular rather than the expense of a relationship.
Even loyalty with a chosen sex-worker would be better for me than the danger of weird narcissistic transactional extra-marital relationships, because the constant threat of deception and “friend zone” is there. They always live in hope that one day you might be theirs. Hence the trouble I had with Manny, a ten year long friendship he blew down the drain after assaulting me.
I’ve found now, that I’m really attracted to sex workers. They know they are hot, and they just want to please. It’s fair, and that’s all I want.
