Fryek you’re just apologizing to the ether here… and not me… me,
some more reflections from the back and forth in the news commentary thread…
You might be accurate right there…. me talking to the ether… or a type of ghost war-fare.
I suspect that early in the week, I typically am moodier as I’m refinding myself after Sat zoom meetup and other zooms groups Fri and Sun. I still haven’t figured out the energy dynamics of zoom, but I suspect that disruptive predatory types have finally caught on.
In the early days of zoom, I was comparing the lack of struggles from disruptive types (often covert/fragile narcissists) compared to in person meetings. Or that they were sloppier on zoom, or more lurking. But now I suspect that they’ve learned the landscape, maybe taking cues from trolling tactics from other social media platforms.
So I can get knocked off balance a bit more. In addition to me putting mental energy exploring the soulless AI algorithms influences on the digital landscape.
I wonder, if there is a different type of emotional contagion effect from zoom and other social media? Unconscious material tends to be what fuels viral content. So how does transference work on zoom or online video?
Grannon’s recent disclaimer pointed out how he’s not talking directly to people, but generally to the group. BUT the video looks like direct eye contact, so it might come across as very personal and dramatic.
So the mindfuck might be that people are reacting to many things from their own unconscious material and projections, but it’s easy for me read it personally or get some level of transference from it. (and sometimes that energy is specifically directed at me, since I’m in the spotlight as group organizer)
In person, I could use my spatial awareness and sensory read to gain an edge, or it allowed me to stay centered. But on zoom I have to project my consciousness further out, or track too much stuff. So it’s easier to get lost. Also others can lurk away, half check out, or fully check out much easier, and they’re leaning on that escape hatch defense.
But, I might be able to counter that with the intimate nature of video.. people will read it overly personal…. if I had better language skills I could probably ping pong people back and forth with soothing and slapping… or sympathy plea balanced with a guilt trip… I sense this strategy would work, but I probably am not skilled enough to pull it off.
and I don’t think it’s just me that’s struggling with this.. I suspect as a collective, excess digital exposure along with 10+ months of limited social isolation.. is influencing everyone…. some might seem happy and established.. but even they’re becoming more one dimensional, polarized, flattened, fragmented, mentally scattered, shut down, etc.
When the collective container of highly sensory rich and diverse social interactions gets shrunk and limited… people’s anchoring and sense of self shifts into a smaller identity or collective pod… more susceptible to social media influence, or getting lost in binging of digital content.
anyway, this is still an ongoing observation and hypothesis… of which if I don’t know what benefit it would offer, if I ever figure it out more solidly.. but maybe it could lead to a clue to a magical portal of deeper insights or something?