Holy crap….
Richard’s going into his childhood sexual abuse history…
and he had a hypersexual persecutor part… and then flipped to super unattractive phase…
details start around 31m in
wow.. more is unfolding… he owns that he would’ve been a BPD (34min)…
dude..
36min - he owns his repetition compulsion
38m - past story - journaling in the rain - bar girls leaving.. broken couch… writing a plan.. sort your life out..
40m - own your humanity… you do care about how you look .. take care of yourself
Don’t abandon yourself!!!
41m - Wow… past suicide thoughts…. and pattern…
42m - calls for prayer 5x a day - Malaysia - assisted by muslims
talking to god.. reminder..
the material world is powerful…
try to remember there’s a world beyond this.
43m - how do people move forward?? with discipline
45min from that couch bar girls in the rain… 2-3 months flew out of that place (hell) -
sorted myself out.. uncomfortable.. most of his friends.. personal trainers.. gym people..
went on hard diet & training program
46m dwelling in his own shade, shame, shadow work.. through his discipline..
47m must have humility… can’t be entitled… give me something.. reality laughs…
48m bring yourself back to truth.. explore them.. process them… act in accordance with the processing of them..
49m - set boundary.. say no.. without action, consequence, change your behavior… that would be shadow integration…
50m - need more civil debate, calmer, facts,
CPTSD has been shown to get worse over time… ACE results…
body will get tired over time.. as you age…
52m I’ve been hesitant to talk like this on the main channel… worried about labelled as able-ist..
things I’m not able to do…
53m meditation (de-stimulation) - sit/lie down and don’t move - do nothing… start at 2min - rest..
54min VG shoutout-
56m - Coddling of the American Mind - book club Tentacle Croissant next week w/ PXO
58m - depression = freeze response… liver/kidney shot in boxing… your world ends.. hits you and drops you… biological..
63m - loaded final question - loneliness.. feminist movement… making women
67m summary close
prior rough time stamps
20m - Who’s to blame
26m - boundaries blurred online