I want to some events in my past.. I get triggered and get fall back into my past memories.. I want to change the past where I would advise myself to be in better control of myself by protecting my boundaries no matter what. My stupid past me willing gave up Total Control of myself and my future.
How I wish I could just have been a little more stronger before.. I want to change the past.. Can I change my past unconscious decisions.. This repeated compulsion when triggered is nasty stuff and hardest thing to avoid in the moment.
oh shit.. Yeah the song Look what you Made Me do resonates a lot..
Haha thats Codependents resentment and vengeance mode. That is useless.. Giving a last minute fight is better than becoming a victim. So my question
How far should go to our evil side in the moment _
How can we stop forgetting that or having guilt of using the above side_
How do you balance your super good side with your weaker bad side_