When you say that you start to see much more and being overwhelmed is so true.
And I did realize…and said it out loud ….jus like you say it in this video. I am simply not ready yet to all of this.
Just realizing that, brings an and to feel like a victim. That life isn’t about fair or unfair. That wanting to be treated in a fair way…. Is just entitlement in disguise.
Even guilt and shame evaporated at that very moment.
Later on I understood, that guilt is far more often a cover up for other emotions. Real guilt is about to admit that you didn’t proceed according to your own moral principles. And from that point on, you will be attentive to be more aware of that, and correct your behavior. You don’t correct your behavior to get someone else to behave in some specific way. You change it because you and others will have benefit from it.
If you say you feel guilty, and you look at your moral compass…and in fact you didn’t anything that is contradicting those…. in that case you are stuffing or pushing away emotions that you don’t want to process.
These emotions are often very intense. And the intensity of them can trigger enormous fear…fear of fear.
Underneath fake guilt many times I discover:
Fear of losing something or someone.
Fear of not being capable to meet other peoples expectations, aka not being good enough
Fear to distort harmony
But there is another thing and it is not an emotion. Or at least Up till now I can’t label it properly: So I will try to express it. It is a sense of not comprehending or understanding what has happened and it leaves you feeling powerless. For myself I know now, that acceptance of what just happened helps to overcome…While I write this down, i think maybe it is about actually really losing something or someone. So Fear of sadness? Or maybe Fear of initiating the grieving process and trying to push it ahead?
Maybe you can shed your light on it?
Thanks a lot for the content on your website, and your channel on youtube. Thanks for sharing and holding space for us.
