Deef Richard loses his sense of separate self when he falls into an intimate relationship?
There’s no room for doubt, because he gets taken over by his emotions and feelings (inner fantasies?)
This was my theory from April 14th post…..
Recently Richard Grannon admitted to going Psychotic in May-Jun 2023… he blames it on sleep apnea, poor breathing, tbi headaches, and insomnia…
Richard Grannon went Psychotic in May-June 2023!! Annual occurrence? 2m26s
Do you get headaches Mr Grannon?
I said no I don’t get headaches
so you don’t get fuzziness in your head?
No and no pain no
she said I’m looking at your results here there’s no fucking way you don’t have headaches!
I was like maybe but I’m not registering them
she said are you sleepy during the day?
I said nope I feel no pain I feel nothing
by the way you were complaining about the headaches
Was I?
Yes
my concussions bad man
was I complaining about headaches in dubai???
Yes, YES. Especially at the beginning and then later on a little bit less, but yes you were complaining about headaches
and then usually you say oh I have to eat something then I’m going to feel better
and then usually when you eat your headaches are gone
but you have headaches you were complaining about headaches all the time
all of that apparently is just exhaustion
they’re like you’re really hardly sleeping at all
the longer version of this story was uh when I was in ibiza
I started going psychotic
because of the lack of sleep
because of the lack of sleep
I was having visions and like it’s really weird
I went back to the UK I was staying at my mom’s house got up at 5:00 in the morning
took my mom’s car keys and then walked to the local park came back put the car keys back in the pot where they live
and my mom came out said where have you been
I said oh I just took uh just took my nephews to the park so
your nephews are in California what the fuck you talking about?
I was in the park I was watching them playing on the swings
my mind was going
this year 3 months ago May June
May June so if anybody saw me posting on Instagram May June I was psychotic um
because I
because of the lack of the Sleep
lack of sleep
so I would sleep it was it was torture
for about two weeks it was real torture
I’d sleep for about an hour and then I’d wake up gasping terrified covered in sweat having some nightmare that I was being choked to death
and then I would walk to reduce the anxiety
so I’d sleep an hour walk an hour sleep an hour walk an hour sleep an hour walk an hour
and that’s why I was like
Outdoors Outdoors yeah
it was the only thing that would bring the anxiety down
when you move your body when I move my body
yeah but I was like God it was fuck it was horrible
I realized I’m being really really anxious and I didn’t know I was anxious because of the self neglect
I was like oh I’m fine I don’t feel anxious I just get depressed and angry
that’s in line with my self- image
that seems like a manly thing to have
depression and rage uh
but no I was actually
and very masculine
I’m really anxious all the time and I didn’t know I was anxious
because of the self neglect
psychotic self neglect
psychotic anxious all the time
psychotic
I’d argue that his videos released in psychotic state are more revealing and truthful…. as his coaching mask drops and the real RG comes out.. along with desperation defenses….
I could go back to his patreon zooms, which ended abruptly in May/June with RG looking a bit worn out and erratic in those final zooms…. and I might share some clips from those zooms…
……
example of RG in a psychotic mindset from May 2023 patreon zoom.
3m08s
When in an emotional flashback, regress into intellectualization & go into harsh scolding super-ego teacher mode….
“Just do it, get on with it!”