I just started watching a series called UNBELIEVABLE. It’s a difficult series for me to watch because I’m in it. Like, it just really sucks I was traumatized watching the first episode and binged through the second episode JUST to get some relief.
it’s about a serial rapist, who gets away, leaving victims unbelieved… the mess, the victim cycle is examined, it’s horrible. It’s like watching a series of disasters about how the psyche of a rape victim implodes and becomes mortified from inside.
i can’t bear it, yet I am watching it. And no matter the next scene that comes up, there’s loads of reflection of me in it and I’m horrified. I see my maladapted behavior in this, YET I cannot remember the specifics of when I exploded or what I was screaming about. I know this series is the root of my maladaptions, but it’s so right on the money and seeing girls act out with bad behavior as a result… makes me feel like I’ve isolated myself!
unbelievable. The metaphors for psyche in it are incredible.