My next mental escape… Demi Lovato’s Dancing with the Devil docuseries…
Only 2 of 4 episodes out right now..
Episode 3 available March 30 @ 12p PT
Episode 1 - 22m
“I crossed a line I’d never crossed in addiction.”
In part I of this fearless documentary series,
Demi Lovato and her family and friends candidly open up for the first time about what led to her near-fatal overdose.
Episode 2 - 22m
“I knew that what I’d been looking for, I hadn’t found yet. But what I had been looking for was not in the form of a drug.”
Demi and her closest confidants give a firsthand account of the aftermath of the overdose as she wakes up in the hospital after being minutes away from death.
Looks like it’s mostly around her overdose, but feels a bit murky with clips from multiple people around her who all seem to be in some level of being in the dark, along with Demi too…. she’s officially diagnosed as bipolar, but her songs describe a lot of BPD inner world… lots of mental illness from both sides of her parents, with her dad abandoning the family and having schizophrenia and bipolar diagnosis, along with abuse history.
Ahh…. everyone is trapped by her drug addiction… she’s in control, and rest of people in the dark and co-dependent in the traditional sense, co-addicts, helpless to her addiction.
ok.. finally got to some meaty details at the end of episode 2.
Demi: I’ve had my fair share of sexual trauma throughout childhood, teenage years.
And when they found me, I was naked, I was blue.
I was literally left for dead after he took advantage of me.
And when I woke up in the hospital, they asked if I had had consensual sex.
And there was one flash that I had of him on top of me.
I saw that flash and I said yes.
It actually wasn’t until maybe a month after my overdose that I realized,
“Hey, you weren’t in any state of mind to make a consensual decision.”
And it doesn’t go away in the first few months of rehab, either.
You know, that’s something that sticks with you for a while after because all of the daddy issues that I’d had growing up,
now I was literally discarded and abandoned.
That amplified all of my dad stuff.
I’ve realized a lot of my past traumas came to a head that night,
but at the end of the day, I’m responsible for my life choices and hold only myself accountable.
And the last two years have been about me doing the work to identify and confront those traumas
so I can be my best self and truly be happy.
Feels like this might still be a bit of a performance going on? The cover story is just barely enough to explain it and give an inkling of hope. But so vague.
Live Premiere interview, seeing Demi giving herself tons of injunctions and cover-up stories. I dunno, if that will stick under stress.
14m
her prior documentary before the overdose, when she was just 25
1h18m
ok, I watched the earlier documentary and that has more of her family background, childhood path, and rise to stardom, along with earlier drug addiction and recovery. With a bit of excess feel good celebration at the end, which is ironic that it was released and then a year later she has a worser overdose..
More traits of BPD extreme behaviors in this documentary… able to manipulate others, wild mood swings, can’t be alone without acting out or some addiction… weird that so many comments are saying she’s so brave, when that’s not her story, I suppose sharing the story could be seen as brave, but in these 2 documentaries she’s putting on a front… controlling her image very precisely.. or the documentary director is framing it that way…
This interview from 1 year ago, shows a bit more of a real side and more hopeful sign of progress… though she still gets triggered easily by what others say, but now ‘sets boundaries’ by telling and asking others to change their language.. I’m not sure how healthy that is long term… she has switched to talking more realistic instead of trying to brainwash herself with fake affirmations..
46m