I’ve been busy today. Got my first vaccine shot. Had a bit of a fever, so I decided to do some calligraphy. I did my mothers name divination
the first is written in Daoist dragon talisman script. So if it’s engraved into a talisman becomes a sort of protection. But can also be used for official documents - although this type of script was only used for documents of law. So would be out of place to use on anything written unless as a will or declaration of life importance.
the second is running script calligraphy in traditional Chinese, rather than simplified… the difference between the simplified and the traditional is in the phonetic section of the symbol that looks like a gate… in simplified Chinese would simply mean as a series or book 📚 type of meaning. Like the jade under the sea that grows in branches, is actually coral. But the symbol in traditional script, is closer to the original meaning…
on the left we have king 👑 and on the right, means to strike out, as if to execute. So, in simplified Chinese my mothers name means beautiful coral, but the hidden meaning underneath, which was no coincidence as name divination in Chinese were linked to fortunes, and since they deemed my mother was unlucky number (4) she was cast out at birth to an orphanage. And her name phonetically could mean beautiful and good. Or beautiful coral. … or Beautiful deleted. Which was a hidden meaning chosen for her, when the fortune tellers told grandmother, she would see the END OF THEIR FORTUNES. But in casting her out, the truth happened anyway, and my mother got away.
my mother told me a horrific story of sister number 3 (the one before her) grandmother fancied a child, so she bought one off the street. Sister number three was bought. Just like my cousin Fei fee, who was also bought into the family, to Sister number 1, eldest sister who couldnt conceive another child. It was a thing over there, to buy a girl off the street and keep her as your family. But apparantly through some sibling rivalry Sister number 3 got beat up badly by Princess grandmother. So she made a fatal mistake of taking action against Princess mother by reporting her, however Princess mother controlled the law enforcement, so, sister number 3 vanished. Dissappeared. And no one spoke of her again. It set the record that if anyone brought shame on the family, they would be removed.
so, as life went on while I grew up, various reports filtered back to me that every sibling had in turn been murdered, massacred, or suicided. Damn I thought, I was so used to seeing death letters at 10 years old, that I felt for sure they would come after me.
so I was programmed from a very early age, that our family ruination had to be kept utterly silenced and never spoken of again, incase it brought something bad to us. However, not one person on my mothers side has died a natural death. So, truth be told there was a total lot of motherfucking disorder that my mother didn’t seem to understand she had escaped from.
my grandmother had to anull her nobility around 1941, something like that, and in doing so, she certified all her children, with new names, Indonesian names, with Dutch certificates, birthdates were changed so that records could not be traced to their lineage. She annulled her heritage by marrying a high order politician to protect her, and he made deals and cruelly did things to appropriate power…
so the family fell into descention, the fractured family warring among themselves and denouncing people around them to keep on passing power and favour with the corrupted law officials.
the villagers held a seige of the mansion grounds, dug a pit in the street infront and poisoned the well, and threatened to throw the whole family in because of the fathers political denounciations.
Princess mother was known as strangely compassionate, if stray dogs were injured, she would take them in and push back their guts, sew them up and make compots from fatty carbon scraped from the bottom of the servants cooking quarters woks. In those days a noble lady knowing medicine and practicing it on a dog fit for porpers eating, was bizarre. But Princess grandmother was not like other nobles, she had unbound feet, unlike the rest. That was a doctrine of the barbarian bride that married into royalty and demanded no girl should be bound.
only the servants could sneak out and leave, and my mother who slept with them, made her escape dressed as a servant in Muslim veil.
the family survived the seige, but they only knew the well water was poisoned when their dogs and servants died. Annulled Princess grandmother didn’t survive too much longer because no amount of funds to bribe protection could protect her from her own twisted family. Eldest sister number 1, was opium trafficking from plantations they owned, and she had some kind of badass boyfriend, who brainwashed her to kill her mother. So eldest daughter did that, and got away with it, but she could not escape the regime. As the family grounds were confiscated, looted, and given to the Dutch, and the government made deals to get rid of the remaining family, my mother was now safely in England. Watching their demise, as China turned a blind eye to the anulled royalty’s plight. I grew up year after year with news of another aunt or uncle execution. Written in blood, with photos. They loved to make a drama out of it.
